Mental Health

So… Like everyone in America I have a mental health team that I check in with a couple times a month. I don’t know if other countries accept mental health as a everyone problem and not just a singular problem. Either way I have a doctor and a case manager and a social worker. I also know a bit about psychology and mental health in general.

What I know is CBT which stands for cognitive behavioral therapy. I’ve taken classes on this and also had used it first hand all these years to deal with some of the horrors I have seen. You see I have PTSD because of my job and that’s the main reason I got out of it. So I take pills like everyone in America :).

Today my social worker told me I had to challenge negative thinking and I instantly thought CBT. Its funny how you have skills that you forget to use when you are having a bad day etc. Even when you are having a good day being in the here and now is part of CBT and normally we are worrying about what happened yesterday or what might happen in the future, often without any proof of events.

Now I’m not saying I’m a crazy lunatic but PTSD really isn’t my fault. Often I have nightmares of not being able to save someone. The actual events change but still I am not able to save them. This for someone like me terrorizes me and makes it so I cant get back to bed. When I wake up, sometimes very very early in the morning, I cant get back to bed. No matter what I do. They tell you to remain in bed for as long as you can or are able to if you cant fall asleep then if you must get up but don’t engage your brain. That works sometimes but sometimes it just doesn’t. I believe its because of what I’ve seen and my mind is a lot more creative at making these dreams then I am at dealing with them. 😛

Anyway back to challenging negative thoughts, this can be challenging when people are historically themselves their worst enemy. Its easy to be down on yourself but not so easy to practice CBT or some other behavior/cognitive run off.

This post has been sitting for a few days now and I’m finally going to finish it by saying this. If anyone for any reason ever needs someone to talk to (I don’t care who you are) then please hit me up anyway you know how. I’m told I’m a good person to talk to when people have issues they are working through. My knowledge of psychological and other behavior modification methods can be a valuable asset to you if you need it.

Mental health is a very serious topic and I have but scratch the surface of things I would like to say on the subject. If you feel like having a conversation with me about this or anything else DM me on discord.